Nature, Life and Living
Troll Stories
There are all kinds of stories and
like never heard of “Troll Stories”
and these here are short. Like life,
these stories are magic. They aim
and appeal to our subconscious.
They tell about life the enchanting
way and how to meet. Life is hard
and we need to work for it. Nothing
about life is free, except the core of
it. It’s there we meet both our trolls
and friendly others, like here.
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Journey Tales
To travel, to move yourself from
one place to another forward and
back, in a circle or in a straight line
is one thing, experiencing various
places. But never really the time in-
between getting there. A journey,
like in these “Journey Tales” are
very opposite. They tell about that
lost time in-between, how we can
interact with nature and life, and
enjoy living while traveling.
Fairy Fiction
In reality there are no references,
but in science there are and is, and
have to be. The “Fairy Fiction” way
to look at it, what is true or not, are
mind-blowing. What if the science
we know, trust and rely on is not
complete? What if science is full of
manmade appropriate assumptions
the way scientists wants it to be? If
there is a way to find out, it’s here,
providing alternative solutions.
Li Sam
Stories, Tales, Fiction; where does all these
telling’s come from? From early age we are
fed with them and we need them, too.
This site, in a way, tells about what we need.
If we enjoy it, is quite another matter. But still
and what this site is all about, is how we can
enlighten ourselves by interacting and asking
ourselves these kind of questions. Nature, life
and living is about existence and in one way
or the other we need to express that.
On this site I express my views on
the subject, for whatever it’s worth.
We quite never know what is or
will be ahead of us in life, there
are so many questions. But even
so, would we like to know at the
bottom of the stairs?
“It depends on where you are?”
a little bird once told me. At that
stage I had like shoved my body
as far from me I possible could.
The path was set and the stairs
I had to climb was there alright,
like starring at me. But the taxi
I had booked didn’t show up.
It was early morning and I just
got stuck there on the sidewalk.
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and call for a cab again.
I was late, I almost didn’t make
it. The little bird flew away as I
entered the taxi, but somehow
never left me, as so many other
good things in life often do.
In lots of senses I walked those
stairs and I have walked them
many times since then. That tiny
little bird still keeps me company
in life, even if not alive anymore.
If we are open to it, nature will
keep us company. Nature does
this in various ways and shapes,
if we keep nature company, too.
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Not a soul in sight, just me kind
of waiting and giving up hope.
The stairs looked invincible and
I seriously considered to divert.
Time as we know it like turned
and shifted and like vanishing
from me there where I stood.
But that little bird stayed with
me chirping, like talking to me.
No angry arguing like trying to
push me. No sweet-talk either to
get me back on track. No, instead
I felt friendship in that little bird
not giving up on me. It took me
at least half an hour to recover
This Path or Another?
Troll Stories - Moments In Life
Whatever nature is and trees
are, all trees are unique, but in a
sense, not quite. Trees have their
unique locations, but our human
ideals too often force them into
parklike metric squares as some
kind of planed objects... which
nature never would do.
I was never able to reach that
bench in the picture, there were
private signs telling me no, but
I was able to enjoy it anyway.
Even if our bodies and the will
of ours cannot visit places such
this, we can still feel them. That
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But even so, the rock wall in the
back no one could tamper with or
touch. The gardener of course
was able to go there and touch it,
but still, never change anything.
In every crack the rock kept its
secrets safe, but as happened, the
tree started to translate for me.
Whatever nature’s secrets are,
they should stay untouched. If
ever let in on one, it’s because
you are invited. Sometimes trees
pop up for us emotionally like
old dear friends, someone to lean
and rely on, and I did.
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bench somehow felt like placed
there for me. Whatever human
ideals and private parks, nature
made that bench fit for me.
As I emotionally placed myself
on the bench the tree in front of
me got very present, a tickling
and pleasant feeling at the same
time, I would say. That tree like
embraced me and allowed me to
mingle within all its shades and
shadows making me blend in, it
felt like the tree was guiding me.
The surrounding lawn was kept
in strict order, no weed allowed.
Where to Sit?
Troll Stories - Moments In Life
It’s strange how nature affects
us and life, it’s not just the view
as such, but sometimes maybe
more, the experience of it.
I’ve been down at those cliffs
many times before and when the
wind cease, the impression of it
all change and nature comes to a
standstill and time as we know it
doesn’t run that fast anymore.
This day that happened and I
got a much better view and sense
of that moment than ever before.
These cliffs with its view have
been there like forever. It’s not
When Nature Pause
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we humans force ourselves into
and raise our children to be.
I thanked nature for receiving
me, no praying or such, nature
doesn’t work that way. And as
the air started to move again, I
together with all my new found
friends, all the animals, insects,
trees and plants, continued with
what we previously were doing.
That moment has never left me,
it like lives within me and I can
return there whenever I want.
That moment is life and it tells
how all we living are connected.
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me who have discovered them, in
fact it’s the other way around. It’s
nature checking me out.
Everything paused and all the
animals, insects, trees, plants did,
too. All we living stopped up for
a moment getting more aware of
both ourselves and each other, no
movement, no sound was heard.
I could feel nature looking back
at me, like sensing me from my
bare feet on the cliff to the top of
my head inside and out. Nature
like searched for the true nature
of me, that me beyond the role
When Nature Pause
Troll Stories - Moments In Life
In general we have to be active
to make things happen. To make
it a “Moment In Life”, some kind
of interaction is needed, too.
So this day my intention was to
make lunch happen out on a cliff
in the archipelago. I packed my
camping chair, a good bottle of
beer (Ayinger Maibock), a ham
sandwich and off I went.
At the cliff I went to search for a
flat stone or something to balance
my chair with. In my search I ran
into an adder, who then quickly
wiggled in under a nearby pine
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happening, too. The adder didn’t
try to escape from me, instead it
made itself a place about thirteen
feet away from where I sat, not
hiding this time. It didn’t seem to
react scared
either when
I passed it a
bit closer on
my way to
the shoreline a couple of times.
Somehow it got obvious to us
both that we both enjoyed each
other’s company, an interaction of
trust which made my day.
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branch to hide. I found me a flat
stone and then, after I had made
my chair balance right, I grabbed
my camera to check if the adder
still was there hiding, and it was.
About eight feet away I quietly
started to talk to it, telling it how
nice and good looking it was and
it reacted. It’s head turned at me
as if it were listening and slowly,
step by step, it wiggled out under
the pine branch towards me.
Continuing talking to it I got my
pictures, then I backed to leave it
be. But there was something else
Company
Troll Stories - Moments In Life
To truly integrate with nature I
need to blend in and be a part of
it, sort of like in this picture. You
can’t see me, but even so, I guess
it’s obvious what I’m up to here.
Anyway, in nature we all have
our places, a kind of role to play,
even if not physical or otherwise
visible at all. To blend in doesn’t
necessarily mean disappearing,
in fact it can be the opposite the
other way around, like blending
in can also be showing.
This beautiful day I picked my
spot carefully. Not many people
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newly polished marble floor.
Of course there were insects all
around, but no one bothered the
others or me. Some flies kindly
visited me to say hello and very
politely I greeted them back.
Time and moments like this runs
fast and soon I had to leave for the
boat back home again.
Even so, short trips like this are
like life and living to me. Nature
and all the creatures living there
don’t mind me visiting and kind
of showing up from time to time
and as a friend I blended in.
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around, so I had this cliff like on
my own. For a while I listened to
all the noise people creates, like
boats passing in a distance. But
after a while I switched channel
and listened to nature instead, a
silence which got me very aware
of the trees in the background.
No wind to speak of, but never
the less that. That whispering air
like moving from behind touch
me and I felt a liking making me
feel both welcome and intrigued.
This emotional exchange got
stronger and the cliff lit up like a
Blending In
Troll Stories - Moments In Life
Sometimes there is this beyond
everything, something that can’t
be touch because the time is not
right. Whenever time is, it’s only
available once, never always.
That day time wasn’t an issue to
begin with. But approaching that
bench from behind, enjoying the
view, my thoughts sort of hit into
something, what I didn’t know?
My mind went blank and the
only thing I could do was to stay
there and observe that moment.
Nature like grabbed hold on me
communicating something.
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but with the children just sitting
there like happily listening filled
me. My mind felt expanding, it
didn’t feel that blank anymore.
Somehow it got obvious to me
that these children enjoyed to be
there with me, like if I was telling
them a story, a tale or something.
They were all strangers to me by
sight, but by sole they felt almost
too familiar. What I didn’t know
then I know now. These children
are very much me but from other
times. They share my soul and
enjoy the ride with me living.
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I didn’t feel scared or anything,
but instead of sitting down on
that bench, I sat down on the cliff
in front of it and turned towards
it with my mind fully open.
From behind me and beyond the
sea horizon, I started to hear
giggling children voices coming
closer and near. I didn’t turn as I
didn’t have to. Instead, and one
by one, a small bunch of children
past me and started to climb up
on the bench looking back at me
sort of excitingly waiting.
I wasn’t quite sure what to do,
Thoughts Beyond
Troll Stories - Moments In Life
What to do? What to do today,
more specifically? Isn’t that the
eternal question we all face?
To a degree we make up plans
preparing ourselves what to do
and then we adapt to them. But
what about all those impossible
plans, planning to enjoy oneself,
how do we adapt to do that?
This day I didn’t plan anything,
other than a boat trip to an island
out in the Stockholm archipelago.
The weather forecast looks good,
a bit windy perhaps, but I know
where I can get good shelter.
Sunset
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a small trick I’ve learnt. But the
late evening trip back there are
not many people on board.
The sea lay itself flat as nature
slows down. The sun sniff some
close tree tops as we pass by and
the horizon is like dressing up in
orange as Earth turns into night.
Like a spotlight the sun peek in
on me through the boat right side
windows, like checking me out. I
really enjoy these moments when
that happens. But there is no way
I can plan it to happen, Earth and
nature doesn’t work that way.
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To reach this island and spend
some time there is one thing, the
trip back another. I really like
these trips back, to me they are
more than just transportation.
Strange is that not one of these
one day excursions are the same.
Even if I’m not doing that much
on the boat, the sea view and the
islands we pass do it for me. But
to “enjoy” it, I need to open up
and allow nature in.
The journey out can sometimes
be quite crowded, but I’m able to
shut all that and all the noise out,
Sunset
Journey Tales - One Day Excursions
The Stockholm archipelago has
a lot to offer and do so in various
ways. One such thing is this over
hundred years old archipelago
steamboat and its nicely restored
interior from the early beginning.
This three and a half hour boat
trip back to Stockholm is not just
transportation. If you are open to
it, this trip is beyond. The steam
engine running is one part of the
experience, another the onboard
restaurant in all its glory “and”
the steam whistle when it blows.
Lunch was perfect, fried Baltic
Steamboat
Lunch
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orchestra was playing, not one
false note can be heard.
As the scenery pass by, some of
the impressions like reach out for
me. The sun light up some cliffs
we pass by and the sea is almost
flat like a floor, even if there are
some wrinkles here and there.
The movements of the boat and
its soft pace tickling vibrations
are adding to nature, it does not
scare nature away. Then... there!
Like in a dream I can feel nature
gently touch me, making me feel
free and welcome back again.
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herring, mash and lingonberries,
nothing more needed, except a
good pint of beer then of course.
But today I choose water instead
of arguing about the beer quality
offered on their menu. Whatever,
I don’t want to ruin a lunch like
this with less than a proper beer
and water is never wrong.
The pace of that steam engine is
like pumping in the background,
no noise at all. There are a lot of
sounds produced by the engine
all right, but those tick tacks and
creaks fits in like if a symphony
Steamboat Lunch
Journey Tales - One Day Excursions
This is about a journey and not
to get from one place to another,
it’s about all there is in-between.
This journey is about cruising
and crossing the Atlantic ocean
from the city of New York (USA)
to the city of Lisbon (Portugal).
There are several ways to cross
the Atlantic ocean and to get to
New York in the first place, I had
to cross the ocean from Sweden
by a regular flight the other way
around. But that’s transportation
more than anything else.
Ahh, New York! Okay, I’ve been
New York,
Getting Ready
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Anyway, cruising the Atlantic
ocean, nature rules, and that to
start off with is a good feeling.
The ship and all onboard have to
adapt to the sea rather than the
other way around, which I like.
The ship, the Azamara Journey,
is small compared to most others,
maximum 690 passengers. Even
so, it never feels like crowded.
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there before and after arriving, I
wasn’t that overwhelmed. To a
degree I had seen it before, and it
comes with age I guess. But I had
not been to the New York central
station before, which to me made
a difference. Like squeezed in by
all them modern style tall tower
buildings it stood out being here
first before all the others.
Nature is like that, it was here
billions of years before any of us
humans and it still stands out in
spite of all our attempts to ruin
and squeeze it out like, totally.
New York, Getting Ready
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
Arriving to the ship is always a
good feeling and departure even
more. It’s a feeling of freedom, a
sense of no stress and nothing to
do, which then can sound boring.
However, and with New York
like vanishing in the background
and the Statue of Liberty coming
up, everything is like shifting.
A city is one thing, and even if
New York is regarded a vibrant
city, it’s still fixed and static in a
way nature never is. The ocean
and all its water is quite opposite
that, it’s constantly moving.
Day 1
Boarding The Ship
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Then, what to argue about?
As we pass the Statue of Liberty
it feels as if I leave all that strain
and struggle behind me, it feels
like I don’t have to bother about
that anymore. I have twelve days
at sea, passing Bermuda and the
Azores, before this journey ends
and I will make the most of it.
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The Statue of Liberty I wonder
about, liberty of what? Politics,
law, rules, regulations and all
other stuff I must relate to, how
liberating is that? I guess it’s a
matter of what kind of political
preferences you have, but still,
you can never feel free from it.
The sea and water is free in its
nature, it’s there for us all, if we
are able to appreciate that kind of
freedom that is. It’s strange, that
about liberty, free of what? If we
were completely free of all and
everything, how would that feel?
Day 1: Boarding The Ship
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
This picture is from my cabin
balcony and even if the weather is
quite calm, the sea is like lifting
itself up and down in a repeating
steady pace creating these almost
invisible massive waves about
eleven feet high. The amount of
water in one such wave and the
wavelength is enough to lift the
entire ship up and down almost
equally high in the same pace.
For some reasons you never get
tired looking out over the water
like this, no wave is exactly the
same as all the others... if you’re
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At Sea
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That pace is life. It’s like learning
to adapt to it and follow.
Boring? No never! If it was, life
would be boring too. That boring
feeling I think of as an illusion.
In all direction I see water and I
allow it to take the lead. Even if
the waves are high, the pace and
the wavelength compensate for it.
The ocean like guides me and I
can feel both my body and mind
at ease. It’s a positive feeling, no
struggle at all. I feel happy and
more than satisfied with this my
first full day at sea.
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not seasick, that is.
I’ve been seasick in my youth,
so I know about the discomfort
and that it sometimes can hit you
seriously bad. However, I have a
theory about this, which I’ve on
several occasions have practiced
with good results. I no longer try
to fight the sea compensating for
its movements. Instead I follow
the sea and let the ship rock me.
It’s easy to say but hard to do,
and I guess it’s about attitude.
The pace of the sea, and in this
case the Atlantic ocean, dictates.
Day 2: At Sea
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
To wake up like in the middle
of the ocean and look out through
the wall window and balcony is
quite an experience. The sea had
shifted during the night and the
waves turned out not as high as
yesterday. But I still can feel the
energy though and I suck it all in.
Breakfast is a joy and I take my
time, no rush, no anything. We
will arrive Hamilton, Bermuda,
later this afternoon and we are
going to dock there. Good is that
this ship can dock right in the
heart of the city and not that far
Day 3
Arriving Bermuda
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out on the top pool deck, which
is a feast for all senses and this
night was no exception. Dinner
was served together with good
entertainment and music which
we all could enjoy and dance to.
The night stretched late with a
lot to eat and drink. On this ship
all is inclusive and the standard
of it all is good, you don’t have to
pay for extras if you don’t want
too. However, and I can’t help it.
To start up a White Night party
like this, a good glass of proper
champagne can never be wrong.
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out where the bigger cruisers are
docked because of their depth.
Its interesting good to feel not
forced taking part in any of the
ashore excursions and instead
enjoy the peace onboard. But
even so, I did. But that made me
even more convinced that I had
been better off staying onboard.
Even if docked you can feel the
sea out there. It’s a good feeling
contrary to all the people, city
and the harbor stress below.
Azamara on all cruises arrange
something called “White Night”
Day 3: Arriving Bermuda
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
Still tired after yesterday’s late
White Night, I woke up a bit late
to a beautiful day with almost no
wind at all. We are scheduled to
depart at four this afternoon, but
for some reason I feel happy and
relaxed about that, no hurry.
Hamilton and Bermuda is okay,
but this journey I’m more off to
explore the ocean than anything
else. I’m still quite astonished the
way these first days have turned
out. In a way I wasn’t prepared
for it, but the way I felt welcome
made me even more interested.
Day 4
Departing Bermuda
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That last piece of reef before land
is like vanishing under our feet
and the miles deep ocean takes
over, seems kind of shy like it is
hiding. I wonder about that and
if there is something in-between
water, land and air, like a thin
layer separating the three? What
if there is, what would that be?
And if there is..., are these reefs
barely breaking the surface proof
of that? Is that thin layer life?
I’m not sure why this thought
emerged like from nowhere, but
I enjoy the experience of it.
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I wonder, how do we prepare
for the unknown, an experience
beyond? I mean, how can I know
about anything which I haven’t
experienced yet? You can read,
learn from pictures, radio and TV
programs, or you can google and
learn in school, but that’s not the
same as having experienced it.
Somehow, when feeling relaxed
like this, time runs fast and the
ship is ready preparing to leave.
The groove from the harbor out
to the open ocean is both narrow
and winding, and one hour long.
Day 4: Departing Bermuda
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
Leaving Bermuda and the city
of Hamilton felt great. The wind
during the last two days has step
by step decreased, and the sea as
a result of that, lay almost flat. No
other movements of the ship than
forward and straight ahead.
The depth of the ocean and the
amount of water in-between the
ship and the ground felt great, it
felt like an eternal eternity took
over. It felt as if all the references
we people unconsciously trust
and rely on in life faded away,
and I allowed them all to do so.
Day 5
At Sea
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A good feeling was having done
a lot, but in reality, I hadn’t done
anything at all. I think we people
are bad taking advantage of this
kind of mental rest which the sea
offers. Somehow I felt a need to
ponder about that some more.
“How can not doing something
be worth more? And if so, what
would that something be?”
Back in my cabin after dinner, I
spent some moments out on the
balcony allowing the evening to
sink in. Out there I felt as if I had
learnt about that something, a lot.
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The mightiness of the ocean felt
close. “How far from realty can I
get?” I thought. But then another
thought popped up, “Isn’t this,
here now, the reality after all?”
The day stretched without one
boring second in sight. The ship
arranged a lot of activities and
entertainment in various forms
for those who wanted. I attended
a daily one hour iPhone course,
which felt good and interesting.
But still, the main attraction for
me was the ocean with all these
views and deep secrets.
Day 5: At Sea
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
An amazing night and the good
weather is continuing. From the
waves to begin with, it feels hard
to take in that this vast ocean can
be this calm with all its water.
My plans for today are one, not
many. And then again, what is a
plan, what is it that I have to do?
Then I exchange my plan to no
plan at all. Then, what is having
no plans? No anything, no musts,
no doings, nothing at all?
I try to take that in looking out
over the ocean like searching for
that feeling, “No anything, no
Day 6
At Sea
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like life can shift in appearance.
Then I thought, “Why bother,
why even get involved in this?”
All of a sudden everything like
stopped and the ocean felt like
listening. A peace entered my
body and the ocean came close.
I felt no need to know all, or to
understand everything there is,
the ocean know all that for me.
That insight like washed over
me and the ocean confirmed by
taking the lead. All me that I am,
Earth oceans contain, and if I ask,
Earth oceans will answer.
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musts, no doings, nothing at all,”
what is that? Is it freedom, like
free from it all, and what is that?
The sea doesn’t rock me, or the
ship, the slightest. All feels like
straight forward and obvious.
What is happening? What is all
this water telling? I can feel the
ocean approaching, reaching out
to me, whispering something...
then it suddenly appears to me.
If land is a reference, water is it
even more. Water is alive in a
way land never can be. Water is
not fixed or static like land, water
Day 6: At Sea
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
Yet another amazing night and
the good weather is continuing.
No plans today, there is nothing
that I feel I have to do.
I really enjoyed yesterday and
the time I spent by myself with
the ocean and today I’m all open
to let it happen, whatever, again.
Funny about all open water and
oceans, like where do they end, is
there an ending? Like today, the
horizon seems to be the same all
around. The sun of course guide
with orientation, but even so, in
all directions, the distance to the
Day 7
At Sea
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Earth surface is curved, but that
alone does not create the horizon,
open water and sky needs to be,
too. Like, where water meets the
sky, that’s where the horizon is.
“But if there’s only one horizon,
is there just one end, too?”
I couldn’t help smiling where I
stood at the most upper deck in
the front of the ship like studying
the horizon turning all the way
around. It felt like sailing to that
one end, but without being able
to get there, no matter direction.
“But then beyond” I wondered?
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horizon is all over the same.
Strange is that there is only one
horizon, or are there many more?
As far as I can see, the horizon is
intact all the way around.
“Okay, now what? Where is all
this leading?” Then vaguely, as if
someone were pushing me in the
side, I remember yesterday.
“Of course, the ocean is guiding
me.” I don’t have to understand,
instead I can relax and enjoy the
ride and experience of it all. It’s
like the ocean is elevating me to
another level of understanding.
Day 7: At Sea
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
I very much enjoyed yesterday
engaging in existential thoughts.
All that pondering didn’t left me
sleepless, but a good sleep, like if
I had accomplished something.
Still in bed peeking out over the
ocean through the wall window
felt grand in all aspects, and with
the weather like improving even
more. It’s a humble feeling which
I know will remain.
I feel like I’ve learnt a lot, things
which school never engage in, or
for that sake, is capable to teach.
It’s with another kind of insight
Day 8
At Sea
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of dolphins showed up breaking
the surface. Passengers of course
got excited and lined up close to
the gunwale and I stood up, too.
To experience a group of vales
blow feels like getting in touch.
They breathe the same air and it
feels like I’m visiting. This ocean
is their home, their freedom, and
it makes me sad that we humans
don’t, or can’t, respect that.
Still, it’s that good feeling, that
welcome touch, which makes me
happy. Live experiences like this
teach more than a picture.
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I have breakfast, sort of entering
another phase in my life. So far
these days at sea have been the
best. But still, curious like a child,
I wonder what comes next? The
ocean is there for me and so far
there has been no disappointing
moments or waste of time at all.
A short announcement from the
captain’s bridge informed that a
vale just had been spotted ahead.
I had placed myself in the back
at a table with a rear view and a
good glass of wine. As we passed
a moment later, vales and groups
Day 8: At Sea
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
That yesterday vale and dolphin
experience is still with me when
approaching this next stop over
the Atlantic ocean, the Azores.
The weather has gone cloudier
but still good, even if the wind
feels like growing in strength.
These two short stops closer to
the European side of the Atlantic
ocean are still far out in nowhere
with three days and one full day
at sea left before arriving to our
final destination, Lisbon.
I’m not sure about going ashore
this time and it feels good to not
Day 9
Horta,
Azores
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the passage was smooth. I think
it’s unconsciously, like at sea you
can’t really focus. Even if the sea
is flat the water is still moving,
and with it, everything onboard.
I like that, I have never thought
about it like that before, water as
a geographical reference. I mean
like rain, how water in the same
sense as land can be a reference,
too? Somehow I feel sure that it
can without knowing.
But if I switch my life references
from fixed land to moving water,
would I benefit? And if so, how?
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have booked any excursions.
Even if these islands seems and
are interesting, I’m having a hard
time to let go of the ocean. There
is something about it that I can’t
put my finger on yet, like a force,
something massive. I have heard
about the sea is calling but never
really understood it. Somehow I
wonder if I understand it now.
Even so, I did disembark for a
short walk to the village of Horta
and back. It’s a funny feeling to
walk on solid ground again after
four full days at sea, even though
Day 9: Horta, Azores
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
There are landmarks and on the
opposite island from the harbor is
this seven thousand and seven
hundred feet volcano. Not active
today, but who knows? The last
eruption happened 1720, which at
least now feels kind of safe. It’s
like a needle stuck into the sea to
navigate after. But still, about the
vales and dolphins, I don’t think
they navigate using landmarks,
which is something to ponder
about when sailing to the next
stop, the city of Ponta Delgada.
It feels good to be back on the
Day 10
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child. Some understandings, not
all, have something to offer. But
still, many good explanations are
there to explore. But why do I feel
as if it’s only one valid which all
the others rely on?
I turn from land and look out
over the ocean from the other side
of the ship as if the answer to this
quiz will be found there.
Funny feeling, looking out over
water, the ship seems to be more
stable than if focusing on land.
Valid or not, I would like that
understanding to be true.
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ship sailing again. The weather is
changing, getting both cloudier
and windy. But I don’t mind, the
weather feels okay anyway.
Passing the volcano island feels
as if it’s floating and not fixed. I
wonder if the vales and dolphins
feels like that same as me? All the
islands we pass feels like flakes
floating around as if the ocean
and its water were the reference
instead. A strange feeling is like
entering, opening up all kinds of
possibilities to an understanding.
Curiously I check in on all like a
Day 10: Ponta Delgada, Azores
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Okay, now the real deal! Not so
cloudy, but windy, and with the
wind steadily increasing.
So far the ocean has been more
than nice to us, flat, with almost
no wind at all. But as we proceed
further into this European side of
the ocean the waves are building
up to almost twenty feet high.
The ship feels safe though, even
if rolling and twisting down and
up through the waves. I still feel
fresh, no seasick in sight. But it’s
still an awkward feeling, almost
like a rollercoaster ride.
Day 11
At Sea
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understood why and what these
reprimands were all about?
The ocean and all its water is in
a process of building up showing
itself. Some may say in anger, but
I would like to say in beauty. It
allows us to ride on its surface
and embrace it, too, if you’re not
seasick that is. It feels odd how
this violent looking ocean can
welcome you at the same time.
That night the waves went high
and the salty water splashed all
over the ship, embedding it, and
it felt as we all had become one.
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The ocean and its water is like
shifting, presenting another side
of itself. It feels as if it would like
to present me its power and who
is in charge here. I like this when
nature takes control and show us
how mighty it really is, but also
how we belong to it, too. Nature
like tells me that nobody can or
should try to fight it. But, of
course, we humans repeatedly
and stubbornly do just that, even
if spanked at the same time.
Of course I have been spanked,
too, because never properly had
Day 11: At Sea
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It was a both good and exciting
night, like rocked to sleep.
As we got closer to the coast of
Portugal the ocean eased bit by
bit like saying “Now you know.”
I felt it as a grateful gesture, as
if I had been a true listener and
had absorbed all what the ocean
had taught and showed me.
A bit sad I turned towards the
horizon all the way around and
thanked for letting me in. I mean,
this touch and encounter is there
for all of us and to meet with it, is
both soul deep and rewarding.
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Arrival Lisbon
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into the ocean felt almost as if I
was losing something without
knowing what. I felt it like the
sea wasn’t calling anymore.
But in spite of that sad feeling I
couldn’t help smiling, like there
was something there after all. I
felt a joy like building up within
me and suddenly I got aware of a
sense of mutual trust. Nothing
were lost and instead I found the
ocean as if stuck within me.
Like an eternal bond this ocean
will never leave me, even if I’m
ashore back home or working.
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Closer to the entrance of Lisbon
the waves went down in height,
and as we entered, the sea lay
itself flat. I felt amazed by this
change and I guess we all did.
An hour after, this suspension
bridge turned up like presenting
itself with a Jesus statue above in
the background like checking us
out as we passed.
I wasn’t that keen to leave the
ship and end this journey, it felt
as if I would abandon something
like leaving something behind.
Those my looks backwards out
Day 12: Arrival Lisbon
Journey Tales - Atlantic Cruise 2019
A good last night sleep and a bit
sad last breakfast. Not much of a
view, but never the less it’s okay,
kind of interesting and positive.
Pack and to go ashore is never
fun after a cruise and journey like
this, but still positive.
I take my time, no stress. I look
around the cabin to check so I
haven’t forgot anything. Then I
place myself on top of the bed to
get me a last glimpse of the sea
through the cabin wall window.
I move over and open the glass
balcony door to get a last sense
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Leaving The Ship
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left my cabin and then in good
order, I disembarked the ship.
Like everything in life we grow,
and the insight having done so,
is monumental. It’s not about age
or anything like that, but instead
about me, my person. So during
this journey I have grown a lot.
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of this Atlantic ocean journey.
I’m not saying goodbye, instead
I invite all back with me home.
I can feel the ocean within me
and that it gratefully accepted my
invitation.
I don’t want to sum-up and sort
of dump all into an album. To me
the ocean is alive and I will share
my living with it. I feel the ocean
like a friend who I can share my
most inner secrets with, a place
where I forever will be safe.
And with that understanding in
place I closed the balcony door,
Day 13: Leaving The Ship
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The End
There are many wonders in the
world and the main part science
cannot explain... or do not know
anything about and the wonders
science claims be able to explain,
does not always add up.
All explaining needs references
and if a reference happens to be
wrong, all thesis and calculations
relying on it will be wrong, too.
On such reference to consider is
the digit zero, which is supposed
to represent nothing. But what is
nothing, can nothing really exist?
If we were to use nothing instead
Zero
and
Nothing
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“when” we have that + one apple
in the first place and its position
“where”. Then, assuming that the
minus apple is the exact same as
the plus apple, where did it go or
what happened to it? That first +
one apple can’t just disappear,
but can be removed depending
on time, or be transformed into
an eaten apple at the same place
during the calculation. But this
can only happen once. Another
same calculation the sum will be
different because that first apple
have changed or is no more.
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of the digit zero in calculations,
how would that math turn out?
Basically all our understanding
rely on that zero equals nothing.
We use the digit zero as a kind of
constant, even if nothing in that
same sense can vary depending
on time, space, place and sphere.
If we calculate + one apple – one
apple the sum will be zero apples
“or apple”. Consider; can zero be
many, like lots of nothings?
What is right and wrong here?
If the sum ends up no apple(s),
as in nothing, we need to know
Zero and Nothing
Fairy Fiction - Scientific References
Zero is one thing and nothing
another. Like in math using zero,
the outcome is one thing, and if
using nothing, the outcome most
certainly will be something else.
The digit zero is a constant, like
plus and minus at the same time.
Nothing is no constant, but the
“Universal Nothing” is. Except
from polarization, the “Universal
Nothing” is both the tiniest and
largest of numbers there is.
In mathematics the sum zero is
relatively easy to understand, but
nothing, how to understand that?
Universal
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everything else in-between. It’s
like an all-dimension ocean with
mass spread out everywhere like
islands, but at the same time it’s
the glue that connects mass, even
if lightyears apart. Without the
“Universal Nothing”, nature as
we know it, could not exist.
So to understand this we need
to practice another kind of math,
using the “Universal Nothing” as
the one and only constant instead
of zero. Another quite enchanting
and enlightening way to do math
and calculations I would say.
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Then as a contrast, the “Universal
Nothing” makes no sense at all.
So which is more accurate than
the others? Which is basic and
most true to use in calculations?
In space the nothing in-between
all planets is regarded as distance
and size, but never mass? Which
indicates that space is something
and that it can be both endlessly
big and small at the same time. A
something that keeps nature both
fit together and safe apart.
The “Universal Nothing” is that
space, all the zeros, nothings and
Universal Nothing
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